2019 was a wrecking ball of chaos for me. Truly. I’m still thankful for you 2019!

This year started really hard. I felt as if my world was flipped upside down, shaken hard until I just couldn’t breathe anymore. I promise to not get so mushy but I always end my year saying thank you so here it is ♥

Thank you for showing up. Through all of my daughter’s medical stuff, we experienced the receiving end of true human kindness and compassion. We’ve been through hardships in our lives before, and people always come to help. This time was different and I’m not sure how to explain it. This time I didn’t keep things to myself and I didn’t try to get through it alone.

This time I reach out and shared nearly all the hard and easy parts with the world. I shared about the times I spend sobbing in the shower. Begging God and the universe to heal my baby. I was held and comforted. I shared about hospital living and having our family split in two. Traveling back and forth every weekend and only seeing each other as a whole on Fridays and Sundays for an hour. I was scared that my guys would be hungry because I wasn’t home to feed them. Hot meals and gift cards to our favorite places were taken care of. A stress relieved from my overflowing plate. I worried over how I would be able to still provide for my family while needing the time off. I was given grace, patience, and understanding. My business thrived because of it.

We were lifted up, prayed for, fed, loved and supported in so many ways. My friends and family, our local creatives community, our neighbors and even strangers. You’re incredible, beautiful humans. These are the moments that can’t be paid back. There are no measurements of love and gratitude quite like this. I don’t know how to say thank you for this except to give that incredible love and kindness right back.

I’m left feeling so thankful even through the chaos, because I witnessed and received such beautiful blessings from all around. I learned what it meant to have a friend when you’re in need and a shoulder when I needed to cry. I learned that I’m not able to do all the things by myself and it’s okay to accept help. It’s not easy for me to hand the reigns over to others.

Just… Thank you. My family survived the hardest parts of this year. We did it with the help of others. We couldn’t have done it without you!

I think it’s important to include photos in blog posts, so I’ll share this one from last weekend! We participated in the 90th Annual Downtown Fresno Christmas Parade with other CIDP/GBS survivors. Of course Abigail walked it and kicked so much butt. It was such a great way to end the year in victory!

2020, I’m ready for you ♥ It’s going to be a beautiful year!

If you’re new here and want to catch up on how our year started, visit these blog posts:
Abigail, Diagnosed
Abigail, Mini Update
Grateful